On the 18th of April of 2012 I was in a car accident not just any car accident, but a almost lost my life situation. Remember we don't know the hour nor the day. We just know we should live on the righteous path of our savior. Now I'm not sure whom everyone follows, because it varies depending on your belief, but I know who I follow and whom I believe in.
Now hold on this is not a preaching to convert anyone over to become a believer in God, Jesus, or Christianity as a whole. This is a testimony, my testimony: Let me just go over the bases; my car swerved, skid, flipped over twice, ended up on the side of the road in a ditch. Glass shattered, and no air bags went off. Should they have, I'm not sure...see even with all that the impact still, may not have been enough.
Now me I was cautious, at least I thought I was... I had my seatbelt on, glasses, and was only approximately 5 mins from my apartment. However, the devil was busy that night; he set his landmine in place and I set it off. But what the devil didn't know and couldn't sense is my maker, my believer, my father, my master was already protecting me.
See what people don't know is I wasn't going without a fight. See if that devil wanted me that bad he was gonna have to earn this body. Now as I'm spinning I said, "oh lord! Not today". Tried to turn the car... Didn't work, I had no control; I saw myself flipping, heard that glass smash; I closed my eyes held my position in my seat tightened up my body used the steering wheel to clinch on (believe me I had a nice grip) and the devil, god, and myself had one heck of a ride. See it wasn't just the seatbelt, or all this effort I put into trying to stay alive. I called on god and I starred that devil in his face and didn't give up and said not today... Not today!
See the devil catches us slipping, now I'm gonna go church on you for a second, turn to ya neighbor or say to yourself, "see the devil catches us slipping". When faced with difficulty we give up and give in, we fold under pressure, but I knew it wasn't my time because God instilled that in me. Now one day it will be my time and I will go with open arms, but only God knows the hour and the day.
Now I'm not saying to save you next time you're in an accident do what I did, I'm saying trust in god and let him lead. Because we all know majority of the time when we have something traumatic happen we panic, especially someone like me (smile). Anyone can be alert to the road and aware of the road, but are you so focused on the road and every other little thing that you're not focused on God. Whether you like it or not no matter how safe or careful you think you are, if its your time then its your time. But god is telling us and has been that we need to focus on him and make sure he is 1st priority, because after all he is the one who's gave you all you have.
Now here's my confession after thanking god for getting me here safely and surviving this accident, getting out this trapped vehicle, and just giving him all the glory and praise; I had survivors guilt. See God had done all that; and I praised, and worshiped, and shouted his good name, but I felt bad for surviving because recently whether a few days before or after my own accident people were dying and injured critically; all from car accidents. And I couldn't understand why? Why was I here, why did I end up unharmed, no bruises, no rush to the ER, able to rest one day and have been working since. Even through all the soreness. See I couldn't wrap my head around that, and it was a hard pill for me to swallow. I thought after all that all I have is soreness, I didn't have an appetite, didn't want to drive, do my hair, work, just didnt... You get that feeling where you just don't want to do anything that's what I mean by I just didn't. It just didn't make sense to me!
However, what I didn't realize because of my mindset and because of this feeling of survivors guilt that; the devil was trying to win one over he was trying to claim victory, don't think because you made it through the storm the devil is done; let me go to church on you one more time, turn to ya neighbor or yourself and say, "the devil isn't done". The devil is always trying to be one up on God, but see God doesn't sleep, he doesn't miss a beat; when you turning over and fast alseep snoring in your bed, who do you think is watching over you. That devil don't have no mercy, he'll get you whether you sleep or wide awake. It's all the same to him.
So i'll use one of my dads favorite lines, "what I'm saying is, once the storm is over and you feel victory is won; the devil is still plotting because he will not rest knowing God won. See the devils issue isn't with you, its with god; the devil is trying to get god, be god, and whomever follows in his path is in the line of fire; now its been a minute since I fought, but its like riding a bike, once you get back on it all comes back to ya, only this time I'm fighting a mental and spiritual battle; and fighting for my father is one battle I will fight in.
See life is a constant battle, religion is a constant battle, and if you are serious about your faith you fight for it. Not physically, but you make sure you give the glory, give thanks, don't be afraid to shout, praise him, speak his name. Give god, your believer his praise. After all its because of him you can stand to share your testimony.
If you feel like you have no control over yourself and you're starting to slip into a rut reach out to friends, family, god, a confidant and ask them to help you. Voice your concerns and even if you know you shouldn't feel this way, you are not alone, their is someone, somewhere out their that can help you, help yourself. Don't let defeat creep in stay on your guard and rebuke any evil that tries to slide in like a snake.
Let go and let god in control and know I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me... Just Believe ;o)
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